the moment when I was saved. 救われた瞬間♫
「実はね、みんな、先生のことが好きだったみたいですよ」
と、送別会の席で、ある若い女の先生からこう言われた。
その瞬間、何だか救われた気がした。
One of the female teachers told me that most of the students liked me when we were in the farewell party.
去年担当したクラスだけではないけれど、自分が授業をすると、クラスはおしゃべりでいっぱいになる。子供たちは自由にものを言う。それでいいんだけど、人の話を聞くときは聞く、これが時々欠けてしまう。
Every time I taught in a class, students spoke out what they were thinking. They became more honest than any other class. They wondered many things in life and asked me many questions. That's why they resulted in being excited to talk. So class were full of noises.
「何だかまとまりのない授業になってしまうな」といつも思っていた。
But the school where I worked was not favourable to such students voices.
授業は時間との戦い。無駄なことじゃないはずなんだけど、ゆっくり考えてる時間なんてない。コミュニケーションも不足し、そうなると、人間関係だって薄っぺらいものになる。
I just wanted to give them opportunities to talk and communicate with teachers to ask their questions. But the reality, there was no time to do that. The schedule was so tight.
でも、やっぱり遅れがちの生徒を見ていると、ほっとけなくて、授業後一緒に学習をした。初めは「残りたくない」と言っていた生徒も最終的には、自ら残り、「先生、毎日残っていい？」なんて聞いきた。
But some of the students were very slow learners. They needed to have extra lessons. I decided to offer free lessons to them after school. First, the students were afraid that it might be punishment just because they were slow. But actually not, never. They were chosen for the chance to learn what they need. I taught them essential basic English. Their anticipation was faded away, and they were willing to learn.
授業中はやっぱりおしゃべりが多かった。席を立ってしまう生徒もいた。じっとしていられないというのだ。「じっとしていると、辛くなっちゃ来ちゃう」と、本音を漏らした。
In classes, a few students were distracted. One of them suddenly stood up and started hanging round the classroom without reasons. However, they tried to be calm, saying "It's so hard to stay still!". And they tried.
でも、その言葉が意外と自分には、「そうだな、確かに、単語をひたすら書いたりとか、殺風景な文章をひたすら暗記するのって辛いよな」って改めて考えさせられた。
"It's so hard to stay still" the words made me inspired. Because if they didn't learn only for examinations, they would have more motivation. What they do was only to jot English words, sentences or answer questions of grammar. It must be boring and never creative.
まあ、そうこうして、結果があんまり出なかったなと思いつつ、１年が終わった。
でも、冒頭の言葉を聞いて、何だか救われた。
Anyway, I was not sure if my efforts or dedication could contribute into their motivation or not. But I got relived in what the words, "Every student liked you a lot."
「がんばってよかったな」って。
That convinced me that I had done was right.
と、送別会の席で、ある若い女の先生からこう言われた。
その瞬間、何だか救われた気がした。
One of the female teachers told me that most of the students liked me when we were in the farewell party.
去年担当したクラスだけではないけれど、自分が授業をすると、クラスはおしゃべりでいっぱいになる。子供たちは自由にものを言う。それでいいんだけど、人の話を聞くときは聞く、これが時々欠けてしまう。
Every time I taught in a class, students spoke out what they were thinking. They became more honest than any other class. They wondered many things in life and asked me many questions. That's why they resulted in being excited to talk. So class were full of noises.
「何だかまとまりのない授業になってしまうな」といつも思っていた。
But the school where I worked was not favourable to such students voices.
授業は時間との戦い。無駄なことじゃないはずなんだけど、ゆっくり考えてる時間なんてない。コミュニケーションも不足し、そうなると、人間関係だって薄っぺらいものになる。
I just wanted to give them opportunities to talk and communicate with teachers to ask their questions. But the reality, there was no time to do that. The schedule was so tight.
でも、やっぱり遅れがちの生徒を見ていると、ほっとけなくて、授業後一緒に学習をした。初めは「残りたくない」と言っていた生徒も最終的には、自ら残り、「先生、毎日残っていい？」なんて聞いきた。
But some of the students were very slow learners. They needed to have extra lessons. I decided to offer free lessons to them after school. First, the students were afraid that it might be punishment just because they were slow. But actually not, never. They were chosen for the chance to learn what they need. I taught them essential basic English. Their anticipation was faded away, and they were willing to learn.
授業中はやっぱりおしゃべりが多かった。席を立ってしまう生徒もいた。じっとしていられないというのだ。「じっとしていると、辛くなっちゃ来ちゃう」と、本音を漏らした。
In classes, a few students were distracted. One of them suddenly stood up and started hanging round the classroom without reasons. However, they tried to be calm, saying "It's so hard to stay still!". And they tried.
でも、その言葉が意外と自分には、「そうだな、確かに、単語をひたすら書いたりとか、殺風景な文章をひたすら暗記するのって辛いよな」って改めて考えさせられた。
"It's so hard to stay still" the words made me inspired. Because if they didn't learn only for examinations, they would have more motivation. What they do was only to jot English words, sentences or answer questions of grammar. It must be boring and never creative.
まあ、そうこうして、結果があんまり出なかったなと思いつつ、１年が終わった。
でも、冒頭の言葉を聞いて、何だか救われた。
Anyway, I was not sure if my efforts or dedication could contribute into their motivation or not. But I got relived in what the words, "Every student liked you a lot."
「がんばってよかったな」って。
That convinced me that I had done was right.
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